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I was seventeen years old when I was introduced to a young,
shy girl who changed my life. She was a third grader, but she had experienced
more in her life than I had even thought up. I was her mentor and I was the one
who was supposed to play a game with her and help finish piles of missing
assignments for forty-five minutes a week. Yeah right. The first day I met her,
I wanted to run to my coordinator and ask how we could have more time, because
that time just wasn’t enough. This was the start of something beautiful.
I like to describe
her life as a movie, something that just doesn’t seem like it could be true. Her
everyday life was too much for a young child like her, and I would listen
intently to everything she had to say, wondering what I could do to make a
change. During my time with her, her parents had witnessed an awful divorce,
and she was placed right in the middle, being pulled in both directions. Her
father had had an affair, and she knew way too much about it. I will never
forget the day she came to me and said “I hate my dad for what he did to my
mom.” This broke my heart to see her family being torn apart. Her mother
struggled every day and relied on family members to provide her children with
transportation. Never once did I hear her mention a home-cooked meal and
education was not a priority in her family. She lacked motivation because
school was the least of her worries. On top of this, drugs and alcohol were
just more words in her dictionary. She would see drugs on the table like I
would see a salt and pepper shaker; normal. To top it off, abuse was just
another chapter in her book of life.
I couldn’t take it and it didn’t seem fair. I wanted to do
anything I could to change her life, I even remember saying I would trade her
places to give her what she deserved. If it was only that easy, I would’ve done
it in a heartbeat. Instead, I had to find a way to give her the perfect life
she deserved for forty-five minutes every week. I had to make her feel special
and loved. More importantly, I wanted her to be motivated, believe in herself,
and refuse to let her story tear her down. My goal was to make her laugh, a lot! I wanted her time with me to be a
time to talk first, and laugh the rest. I wanted to get her mind occupied by
introducing her to the beauty of life. I knew that if I could do this, she
could experience something other than pain. While my goal was to change her
life, she changed mine. She opened my eyes to a different kind of beauty, one
that endured pain with a smile. She took her life circumstance and made
something of it. She experienced scenarios that any adult would struggle with,
but she would still come to school and smile. I admired that about her and she
never ceased to impress me.
I still remember our last day together, and how we didn’t
want to say goodbye. By this time, I had been with her for two years and we had
learned so much about each other. To be honest, I was very scared to leave her
because I didn’t know what would happen. Her life was unpredictable and I
needed reassurance that she would be okay. Her biggest concern was that she had
to find a new mentor that she could talk to about everything and that would also
bring her McDonalds. My biggest concern was that she would lose motivation and
continue in the never-ending cycle of poverty. Throughout my two years with
her, I worried about her a lot. I worried about her going home at night and
being hungry or going home to find her dad. But as I drove away from her school
on our last day, tears rolling down my face, it was a different kind of fear. I
worried that she would give up. She had previously told me she that she wanted to
bring me to teacher appreciation night when she graduated high school, and I
wanted her to keep that promise. I wanted her to graduate and go to college.
She had come so far and I didn’t want her to stop trying. I prayed that she
would always believe in herself and be strong enough to overcome whatever life
threw her way. Without a doubt, she became my eight-year-old hero and she is
the reason I am joining Teach for America. I am doing this for her and every
other child who has to overcome obstacles. I want them to believe in themselves
and know that they have the opportunity to follow outrageous dreams. By joining
this effort, I am taking a stand. We all know that life’s not the same for you
or for me, but education should be. No matter where a child comes from, no matter
their race or their class, they all have the ability to learn and that ability
should be stretched beyond this world. My
eight –year-old hero has taught me to take a situation, make something of it,
and follow my dreams. By joining an effort to close the achievement gap, I am
doing just that.
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